It's a GAD GAD World
Thursday, April 08, 2004
THESE TAXING TIMES
I feel like the memantine isn't working as well as it used to. This could be because the memantine isn't working as well as it used to. It could also be because I work at a tax firm and we're a week away from April 15. It could also be because I'm due to start my period in 2 days. So who knows?
It could also be because of the TV I'm watching. Last night's Law & Order episode dealt with the issue of homelessness--something that's been weighing on my mind for over a year now. Tonight's ER was absolutely gut-wrenching. And during the commericals they advertised an upcoming made-for-TV movie about 9/11. (Do we really NEED a movie about 9/11? Wasn't the real story horrifying enough??)
When last I blogged, I was worried about what my doctor was going to say to me in the aftermath of his Medicaid bomb. And the answer is (drumroll, please).....
That's right. Nothing. That motherfucker didn't say a damn thing about it. It was as though it had never happened. What a shithead.
I'm going thru this love/hate thing with him now. (And no, when I say love I am not suggesting that I want to sleep with him.) On one hand, he's done more waffling than Aunt Jemima, to the point where I can't trust anything he says. On the other hand, he's very intelligent and a good communicator.
Further compounding the issue is that right now he's the only thing I've got right now in terms of medical treatment. I still have no health insurance, and after 4/15 I probably won't have a job. I need him.
So I don't want to lose him, but at the same time I want a little more respect. And even if by some miracle I landed a full-time job tomorrow & could afford to go shopping for another doctor tomorrow, there's a saying: The devil you know is better than the devil you don't know.