KIRSTIE ALLEY KICKS MY ASS
God I hope I spelled that name right. If I didn't, I'm sure some reader will correct me.

First of all, thanks Adam for your comment. I always suspected there was a connection between mental illness & government, now I know what it is! :)

But back to Kirstie. Didja see her on Oprah this afternoon? My jaw dropped during the episode. Not because of her bikini stunt--I could care less about that. My jaw-dropping moment came while they were showing her "before" pictures--y'know, the ones where she was really heavy, before she hooked up with Jenny Craig. As the pictures appeared on the screen, Oprah mentioned Kirstie's "before" weight.

The number was exactly what I weigh right now.

This woman, who is about 20 years older than I am and probably has way shittier metabolism than I do, managed over the course of 2 years to drop 75 pounds. And quit smoking. And I can't even manage to stay away from the ice cream.

I had a couple of other slap-in-the-face moments today. The first happened earlier this morning, when I ran into a neighbor whom I hadn't seen in a while. She had said something to me a while back about having a couple of empty bedrooms, & I thought that maybe I could make a much easier job of cleaning out and beautifying my apartment if I could store some of my crap in one of her bedrooms for a while. To make a long story short, she said no. She wasn't nasty about it or anything, & I'm certainly not angry with her about it, but I was kind of hoping I could do this in order to clean my shithole, and now that's up in smoke.

The second moment occurred when I got my monthly bank statement. For the second consecutive month, I spent more money than I made. Not by a huge amount, & I've got enough in savings that this isn't a financial crisis, but it pisses me off that I can't live within my means.

My spending is out of control. My weight is out of control. My mess in my apartment is out of control. And I don't know how to get control back.
- posted by Pat @ 7:22 PM