It's a GAD GAD World
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Thanks Jane for your comments. I only published one, since the other was just an abridged version of the first.

Some people get headaches under stress. Some people experience muscle tension. I experience what I euphemistically call "gastrointestinal episodes". Lucky me.

Since Monday I've made 4 phone calls to 3 different p-docs. The one doc I actually talked to seemed abrupt & she was kind of expensive. The other 2 haven't called me back.

I'd give anything for a grilled cheese sandwich right now. Maybe some cheesy bread from Domino's. I just want some tasty carbs with enough fat in them to taste good. Except if I wanted grilled cheese I'd have to haul my ass somewhere to buy the cheese, then I'd have to make the damn sandwich. And I don't even have the energy for that. Tonight's dinner was a bowl of instant oatmeal topped off with a piece of chocolate cake mushed in with the dregs of some ice cream. The thought of actually cooking something, even if it's just mac & cheese, is just too much for me.

But I still get hungry. So I eat junk because it's the first thing I find that I can shove into my mouth.

I'm sorry. I'm not making any sense at the moment. I'm not very sane right now, & I won't be sane until I get this p-doc crap straightened out. So don't be angry if I don't blog much, or if I blog with too much inconsequential crap. My head is not working properly.

Pat, its ok. Am in the same county as you tonight. You know, I don't know why they bother to call em diet soda..haven't lost a damn pound on these things. They actually seem to be sucking the energy out of me, my stomach is growling like I haven't eaten. I assure you I have. No more diet drinks, ever. From now on only water at least 8 per day even if I have to live in the restroom. So tired I feel cross eyed. Had to keep on though, no sitting on my fanny tonight. Had to bake a red velvet cake for some folks we will be dining with tomorrow night. No cooking for me fri., which is good. Made chicken tacos tonight with the works, that was it. Too tired to make more freaking BBQed chicken. Am growing pin feathers from all the chicken; have to empty the freezer- theyre coming like May 1st for my stuff. Take care of yourself & hang in there with the pdoc stuff!
Pat -
I only just started reading your posts, but I started from the beginning. I've never been diagnosed with GAD, but I'll probably go see a counselor soon.
It's comforting knowing I'm not the only one. All your trouble with your doctor and feeling like you need to confront him - makes me wonder whether we are just more sensitive to outrage. I constantly feel like I need to wake people up to their own wrong doings.
Thanks for putting yourself out there.
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