It's a GAD GAD World
Sunday, March 04, 2007
Thanks Jane for your comment.

I suspect that there is a great deal of truth to this whole thing about anger and/or anxiety being cyclical with depression. Sometimes I feel like I'm bi-polar, only my "ups" aren't about rage or being hyper-energetic, they're about being stressed. This may explain why Lamictal (a drug commonly used to treat bi-polar depression) worked for me briefly.

I've been in depressed mode most of the weekend, and I suspect it's a rebound from my stressed-out adventures in finding a new p-doc.

On a totally unrelated note, I'd like to pose a question to all of you: I need to give my soon-to-be-former p-doc a nickname, so that when I talk about her in posts you don't confuse her with my OTHER former p-doc, whom I now refer to as "the asshole".

So what should I call her? The dingbat? No, that doesn't sound quite right. The White Russian perhaps? Maybe. She was Russian & quite capable of driving someone to drink. Anyway, if you think you can come up with a better nick, post it. If I like it, I'll use it.

What do you think of "The Gnat" since she was ineffective and annoying at the same time? Or you could describe her as the "Pill-dispenser". Mine....his name is Snow, hence the nickname "Dr. Snowjob", but it really isn't like that anymore. He's got his head screwed on straight 97.5% of the time, and pretty "dead on" with my issues. Hunker down Pat, the depression will pass. I always tell myself that I only have to make it thru today. I try not to think about tomorrow when the depression is whoopin' my butt. Take care of yourself!
You could call her PITA. Pain in the ... well you know what I mean.

I have bipolar II with GAD and Panic Disorder. Most of my cycle is in the down depression end. That's while medicated. Before I was diagnosed, I was mostly in the up manic end. Now, I rarely have manic episodes. When I go through my depressive cycles I have some things I do. I rent movies and watch a lot of movies. I get out my to be read pile and start reading books. I give myself those two pleasures. I know that I'll cycle out eventually, but until then, I'm just going to go with the flow and let it happen. I know it's hard. There are some things that I just can't do while depressed. And not being able to function makes me depressed too. Then I start worrying if I'll ever come out of this cycle and if I don't what will I do... and well, you can see where the GAD and Panic Disorder come in.

Find what pleases you and do those things. Enjoy them. You'll get through the depression one day at a time. Be good to yourself.
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