It's a GAD GAD World
Saturday, October 30, 2010
I bled a little last week. Still not a real period.
A long time ago I mentioned this guy I met at a concert, whom I nicknamed Red for his awesome hair. *sigh* This gets kinda complicated, so follow along.
Red & I met at a concert about a year & a half ago. We seemed to hit it off, but afterwards whenever I suggested places/events we could go to, he would either give me a bullshit excuse or not respond at all. A normal person would have taken the hint after a couple of weeks, but as anyone who reads this blog knows, I am not normal when it comes to men. Further compounding the problem was the fact that I'd brought my pocket recorder to this concert & Red had expressed an interest in having a copy when I finally got around to burning it. To make a long story shirt, about 6 months after the concert I finally mailed him a copy of the cd at his work address (it was the only one I could find online) because I was sick & tired of him dicking around & I didn't want it sitting around my apartment reminding me of him. I also called him on his bullshit in a kiss-my-ass email.
That happened almost exactly a year ago, and that was pretty much the end of the story, save for the fact that despite the way he treated me I still couldn't stop thinking about him. Fast forward to last weekend. I was at a concert. (Here's where it gets a little tricky, because I'm not going to use actual artist names here to protect my anonymity.) The artist that Red & I saw way back when (First Artist) once recorded a duet with an(O)ther artist. The concert I was at last wknd was the Other Artist.
When Other Artist walked out for the encore, First Artist walked out with him and the place went nuts. Then the 2 sang their duet. Since I had Red's cell number programmed into my phone (I'd saved it when I was dumb enough to believe we'd be seeing each other again--to paraphrase Nick Hornby, I don't have friends, just acquaintances whose contact information I haven't managed to lose yet), on a whim I called him & held up the phone for the duration of the song. A little audio nugget of joy, if you will.
When I got home there was an email from him. As I clicked on it & waited for it to open, I figured it was going to be something along the lines of "don't tie up my line you stupid bitch why are you bothering me". But it wasn't. He thanked me profusely, said he'd been thinking about the concerts for months but couldn't attend. Said the audio was lousy (wtf??), then said I made his night. And of course, he asked if I had brought my recorder.
We had a brief email exchange, during which I learned that he's been laid off from his job. Having spent quite a bit of time in Unemploymentland, I wrote a few paragraphs of what I hoped was helpful advice. No response.
A couple of days later I sent him a funny link & apologized for getting all amateur shrinkish, & said that I was only trying to be helpful because I knew how much being unemployed can suck. I also told him that First Artist was going to be doing a local concert (either free or very cheap) next week & offered to buy him a drink if he wanted to come. No response.
So...for about 24 hours Red was back in my life, if only in cyberspace. I don't want to marry him. I don't want to fuck him (yet). At this point I'm not even expecting him to buy me dinner. I just want to see him again. Spend time with him. Hang out. See if we can enjoy each other's company. But I guess that's too much for me to ask.
I'm still going to First Artist's show, though. Not counting last wknd, it will be the first time I've seen him in over a year. Screw Red. (I wish)
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