HOME HUNT
First, I want to apologize to everyone I've neglected since my last post. I haven't forgotten you, I've just been so damn stressed out that I needed to focus on me first.

Here's what's been happening. Without going into major detail, something happened here at home that freaked me out. As a result, I've been looking for a new place to live. And in the very short time I've been doing that I have been jerked around in so many ways & seen so many scams that the process has left me physically and emotionally exhausted. I've spent the better part of the past 24 hours in bed, either doing nothing or crying from sheer tension.

This is not good for me. I *know* this is not good for me. And it's got me thinking that maybe I should forget about moving, stay here, & put up with the creepy shit that's been going on here.

I'm just so damn sick & tired of having to take care of myself all of the time. I'd like someone else to take care of me for a change. Not 24/7. Just once in a while, for maybe half an hour. For 30 goddamn minutes I'd like to lean on someone's shoulder & let them do the worrying for me.

It's only 8:30 now, but I think I'm going to take my sleepy pill & call it a night. Thank God I've got a short work week. Not that I'll actually be doing anything for the holiday, but at least I'll have time to get some rest.
- posted by Pat @ 8:34 PM