CROSSING FINGERS
Thanks Sherry for your response.

I've actually been feeling pretty good these past few weeks. Whether or not it has anything to do with me chewing my p-doc a new ass, I can't say for sure.

Then Thursday night my boss took me out for a steak dinner as thanks for a gargantuan project I managed almost single-handedly. The dinner went ok, but I got home kinda late. It screwed up my sleep routine a bit, and as a result I woke up at 3:30am on Friday & couldn't get back to sleep. Got up at 6am as usual, & felt ok till lunchtime. Then my brain just shut down despite the caffeine I'd consumed at lunch. I was nodding off at my desk & couldn't wait to get home just so I could pop some remeron & crash.

Then I got home, & popped 1/8 of a remeron, & waited for it to kick in. And waited. And waited. Nothing. I should have been dead to the world within 2 hours, but I wasn't. Finally around midnight I did my doxepin & that helped me crash. I fell asleep sometime after 12:30 & woke up this morning around 9:30.

Last night when I wasn't fidgety I was kinda weepy. I'm hoping that this was just fatigue & not a sign of a downward spiral. And I hope my fatigue doesn't CAUSE a downward spiral. We shall see over the next few days...
- posted by Pat @ 10:50 AM