AND THE BLEED GOES ON
I've now been bleeding for 20 consecutive days.

So I've been looking on the 'net trying to figure out why this could happen. I mean, I *know* it's because I'm 40 & my uterus is conking out, I'm just trying to figure out how big of a deal it is.

And every website contradicts the other. One says it's not common and one should RUN to the gyno if it happens because it could be a sign of endometrial cancer, the other says it's common in perimenopausal women and can be regulated with hormonal therapy. One even suggested it could be a vitamin K deficiency.

*sigh* Whatever. At least now I'll have a good excuse as to why I'm not having sex. "Sorry, but I've been on the rag for the last decade."

So it's Thanksgiving Eve & once again it'll be me and a Marie Callender turkey pot pie. And the cat will get a can of cat food, of course. I have holiday presents sitting on my kitchen floor, but I just don't feel like wrapping or sending them. I was going to buy more, but now that I realize what a rotten piece of shit I am, I don't want to for fear it will offend someone.

I will send the gifts I already have, of course. Just to get them out of my apartment.

I've made an appointment with my p-doc for next Friday (12/3). I'm going to tell her that I've been depressed for over a month and the doxepin is no longer working. Our choices are either to up the dosage or switch to a different drug. I'd like to try upping the dosage first, simply because I don't want to go through the hell of trial & error if I can avoid it.

It's been about a week since I've communicated with anyone on FB, on or off FB. I don't think anyone's noticed. Or cared.
- posted by Pat @ 10:32 PM